It's a chalenging to work in a company. Here I'm. Work as a CEO in a company. At first I feel the rebellious inside me. I don't want to listen to people. I'll do what I'll do. But then when to think about it, I need to turn down my ego.

Before this Wan had adviced me to lower down my ego. He said that I was easily distracted by things I jealous about.

At first I was angry. He himself is like that. But then, when I think again, he is right. I was easily distract by the success of other people. How can I be like this? Maybe because I never look at the success of myself. I feel like I was lower than earth. Which I'm not.

I can go further. I know I can. Ah I just need to be discipline in all of my action.

Bukhari Ramli had said that he had the attitude of keeping RM200 in his wallet. He will look at the rich people things. He feel he can go further.

I'm thinking like that too. I know I can.

After taking my paradigm to the another level, now I understand how important it is to read the motivational books. Cliche people will said that reading al-Quran alone is enough. Well, I do agree on that. No argue on that.

But. Yeah there is but. I want to enhance my knowledge more in motivation. Writing is part of it. I know when I write my true feeling on my lappy, I do improve my thinking.

Right now. Although my English has been long downgrade since, I still now I can write better. Oh well. My writing can be better and better. Furthermore, how can I achieve success if I never know what is failure. One cannot compare when one don't have the baseline of comparison.

It's been a long time since I want to be good in writing English. I admire how people can write good in English. I fascinated by the article written in English. But that doesn't mean I can't read Time Magazine. The level of the language still I can read.

It's just my writing and speaking has lowered down a lot. Maybe because of me love to read in BM?

I know to be a better writer I need to read a lot. And then I need to write a lot. Well, I wish this is a good start for me write back in English.

I need to refer back my English book. English itu Mudah. I've read it once but I never know why my English never since going up. Uh. I know I can for further.

Anyway, back to the company story. Haha. I chit chat long long away.

Uncle and Hamzah do help me a lot in decision making. I learn a lot in making my progress here in KL. I know there is need for me to unlearn what I've learn.

I need to keep myself updated with basic knowledge. I need to prepare myself better. Or else I will be kept down with nothing to do. Or I can say I will be broke.

Time writing is better than words writing? Well, it's up to the writer it self to choose.

I choose time because with that I can stick to myself that I can write every single that 10 minutes.

Don't waste my time on thing I can't go with. Well, I hope my writing has inspire you to write more.

Thanks for listening to me.

Damn you! That's what I feel like to say to Wan. He's still like always. This evening I met him. Like always we chat for a while. He with his life. Me with my life.

And at the end of our talk, he told me that I still like the old days. Never change. I has change a lot he said.

Argh! His saying makes me wanna shout the damn word. Are you sure Wan? Or you're the one never change at all.

But then, when I think about it, I start the uneasy atmosphere first.

I still remember how I hate being asked by a senior of mine about the final year project done by me. At that time I did about sprout. I know she had done her master about that topic. One of the way for me to know more about sprouts and its procedure, I need to ask her.

I know where I can meet her. At the lab in the evening. She at that time is continuing her PhD on bunga kantan research.

I don't know what she ask me but I feel threaten. I'm been defensive. Then she assured me that she just asking not more than that.

After a while doing business, now I understand what it's all about. Asking questions are the great way to know what you really want.

I never ask myself why I want to do business. Then how can I strive in the world of challenging?

Just now I read somebody asking how he can improve his sells in his business. I try to ask. Then I have an instinct what will happen next.

Asking make people feel vunerable. I ask him who he is targated customer. Than, actually I too wonder what he is ask? Ah.

Me with the notion in the first place. I should not intefere in the forst place. It's not my game anyway. All people in there are great people. They are at the different leauge. Why should I walk along with them?

I choose one school of thought that is BRC. Then I will dig in what it's all about. Why should I care about others?

I want to implement it in my work. I don't even care to tell people about it. I will show it anyway. I've seen the way I should work.

I ask and I get my answer.

Here I go!

It's been a long time since I post in here. Or I can say on here? Heck. English is hard to tell in or out or on. Whatever.

Yesterday I almost had a fight with an acuaintance. He still my quote on facebook. Luckily I saw it. I comment how ridicolous of him to steal my quote without even giving credits to me.

Then he state that Malay literature never state it's writers. Heck!? I wonder how stupid he is to tell about like that. Does he know anything about writing and plagiarisms? Stupid he is I can say.

And then when I state about how hadis been recorded, he put his thinking and feel cap. Oh well. Reading that makes me want to vomit. How pityfull to read people try to express opinion by saying rasa, pendapat and shit of that.

Please. You are living in university. You must learn as a university student. Don't get me wrong. You need to learn to let go of the ego.

Well then, this is because he had all along start the plagiarism and nobody had explain or tegur him about his wrong doing.

By then, I quit. I don't want to waste my time with idiot who think his thinking is all good. Wrong is still wrong. Why should we defend it anyway?

Well, I learn about it long ago not to debate with stupid people on facebook. People can be judgemental on facebook. They think they are correct. They opinion is the best. Just look how many likes my comments. Is it true?

I was like that when I use facebook at year one. Then I grown up. I see facebook more than that. Facebook has become my working place. No more playing around.


Now I'm focusing on this blog to write anything I found good. People might discover it. Oh well, I no need to quarel much about it.

This is the blog for me to express my feeling in a more complicated way. Which English medium I choose.


I promise to write every single day about it with 300 words minimum. Can I?


Well, I need to start the routine anyway. Long ago I've tried it, but I fail. This is because one of it is because of lack of motivation. After that, lack of discipline. But then, English has conquer most of my knowledge.

Most of the reading I made, related with English.


Though my writing isn't always great when it's related with English. Can I improve my English writing?

Well, start by writing I guess.

One of the way for me to improve my writing in English is by reading. I love reading. By reading I learn a bunch of new words. With that new words I increase my vocabulary. Although not all new words I learn I remember, but when I see it in other text, I eventually will try to remember what it is about.

I've finish reading a novel by Nicholas Spark. I don't know who the hell is Nicholas. One thing I know is that I've read his novel titled 'The Last Song'. I do remember how I finish the novel with tears. It sure made me reflect who I am.

Then I manage to read Nicholas other books called 'The Rescue'. How interesting to read it as a reader and a writer.

Before this I read as a reader. I criticize if it doesn't fit with my preferences. But then I realise that I was wrong. As a writer, I should look more deeper in what I read which is the way the writer write.

Ah thank you Sifu Azzah for reminding me this. It sounds harsh, but I know it is for my own goodness.

Anyway, back to the novel. I remember vividly its characters involved who name are Denise, Kyle, Judy, Taylor, Mitch and Melissa. There are bunch of other names but for sure those six gave me big impact to read further.

I like how Nicholas able to describe the event which then I too immersed the feeling of each characters.

I understand how Nicholas describe the surrounding and its effect on the character.

Oh I also like the way Melissa advice Taylor. She knows Taylor want to help but then, that is not what she want after all. What Taylor need is some guidance about himself. She knows Taylor has a problem of the past. But then Taylor refuse to admit it to anyone else.

I like the way the author able to describe the story. After all I guess I want to know whether Taylor will become Denise's husband or not.

At first I was thinking that the conflict will begin with Denise has a problem with Kyle's true father. But then, that is not the main plot after all.

I can give a 3 out of 5 stars on this novel. Good but not the one I can go for.

With this I pile up all the quotes I found while reading on the Internet.

You’ll know you’re succeeding when it feels like writing is taking over your life. (source)

Amateurs will spend their lives reading about what other people do. But professionals? Have the balls to make a decision about what they want to master. And then master it. (source)

Pressure is Not Your Friend. (source)

Imagine that! I need to teach real English. It is a new challenge for me.

As you can see, my blog is about me growing to write better in English. Yet you'll find a lot of errors here. Because I use Manglish of course!

Kak Zura had called me two weeks ago asking me whether I can teach primary students at her centre working at.

She asked whether I can teach on Friday night. Oh well. I said sorry I can't because I already teaching a student on Friday night.

Then she asked whether I can teach on Monday night. Well, I do free at the time. It just I was still blur about what will I teach there? Kak Zura offered me to sit there for a class to see how the class been handled.

So yesterday I went to the centre to get the gist.

Upon arriving there, I was introduced to the owner of the centre, Puan Sharifah. She asked me to join her class. But before that I need to fill up some form for the record for the centre.

What interesting was, I need to write an essay titled 'Why do I want to become an English teacher?'.

Oh my! I was not prepared for this. This is tough! My English writing and speaking is at average level. Hahah. You can tell by reading my blog! I'm only good at reading! I can read Time magazine, k?

Oh well. What the heck. Rather than I take myself aback, better I finish it here. So I wrote it anyway. Three reasons I wrote why I want to become an English teacher.

First, I love teaching. Second I want to improve my way of teaching. Lastly I love the challenge of teaching.

Luckily I still remember the writing technique taught in 'General Writing' when I was in degree in UPM. I applied it in the essay.

At the centre, mostly I need to teach kids there about speaking. Puan Sharifah was kind to show me the way the centre teach.

Well, it gave me a goose bump!

There were many kids there! 5 girls and 6 boys. In the class I can say the boys were more active than the girls.

"Alright. Keep quite. There is a new comer here. Let him introduce himself," said Puan Sharifah.

I was shivering. I'm not good in teaching in crowd. Oh well. What ever happens, happens here. I stand up and introduce myself.

"You want to try to teach now?" whisper Puan Sharifah to me. I shook my head.

"Alright. Then you can sit here and see how the class been handled," said her.

For the past an hour, I can see Puan Sharifah handled the kids well. "You must show the kids who is the teacher here." Sometimes Puan Sharifah tell me teaching tips while she conduct the class.                                                                                                                                                                        
When the class end, I had a small conversation with Puan Sharifah.

"Well Izham. How about the class? Did you enjoyed it?"

I don't know what to say.

"I've read you essay. It has a lot of grammar mistakes."

"I know."

Gulp. Suddenly my experience of being rejected as a tuition teacher before this came back in a flash. I took a deep breath. I accept any decision she made whether I being accepted here or I need to leave right away.

"I do see you want to improve yourself in teaching. Well you can grow with us if you want."

I don't blink my eyes for 5 second! This is something new to me.

"You can google 'phonetic'. And here take this book for you to use in the class next week. You can borrow it before you teach." Puan Sharifah handled me the book she used in the class.

This is a new challenge for me. I take the challenge!

How about you guys? Have you got any experience like this? To try something new that you aren't familiar with?

You can give a hi or comment here. I would love to read it.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

Being non-English native speaker, it seems English is part of me. Not just me, but everyone in Malaysia. Honestly I can say I'm not good in English.

Because of that I create this blog. Just for me to improve my writing and generate any ideas of writing in English.

Actually before this I do write English everyday. It just not online. I wrote it in my personal diary. Yeah. Laugh all you can. A man can also has a diary! Ahahaha.

But then I stop. I don't know what to write in it. I just write bluntly without knowing where will I stop. Honestly, I just don't know what the hell I wrote for.

Even if I write every single day, does my English writing will be improve? There is no key indicator for me to check up for. I can say KPI for it is none.

Maybe that is why I stop being me in English. As part of it, my English grading down.

Oh then my mentor in writing share about this splendid website called Humans of New York. I'm attracted to how the author able to tell the story in a well manner way. Oh my. A question arise inside of me. Can I be like that?

Well, I don't know. Let the time tell me whether my writing in simple plain Manglish here about my life will able to make my writing better or not.

By then, see ya all.

Well, as you can see I'm just a simple guy who can't write English well. In the end what I wrote is just a plain Manglish. I do wonder what is Manglish is all about?

I do read English perfectly. It means I still can understand 90% of what articles in Time Magazine is all about. I just wonder why the hell I can't still write English well.

I just want to compare it with my bahasa Melayu writing. It isn't that perfect also.

Alright. Let me do some post moterm about this.

Why is Izham cannot write perfect English?

First, maybe because up until now I don't understand much about the tenses. Yeah. What with the past, present and future? What I know is that I said this and you understand when it happen.

What's with the past? Ahhhh. I really hate it, you know.